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Sunday, January 30, 2005

Bought a lots of cha soba noodle , those complete with their seasoning ! Coz carrfour having a crazy promotion of selling per pack at 20 cents. I can't believe my eyes! LAst time i bought is about $1.30 . GRAB LA ! Thinking about that I feels disgrace ! Very Aunty ! VEry Kiasu ! Imagine walking out of PS and in orchard rd with 4 big bags of carrfour plastic bag , a loaded with gorceries....taking bus !

Guess wat ? I took up cooking as my hobby now and NOW IS COOKING TIME!

I do know how to make a nice soba .
Broccoli (high in calcium and Vit C ) and the seaweed (esp seaweed is a must)
Mixed vegetable and those long japanese straw mushroom!
As for seasoning, put them in separate bowl and pour hot water to the soba sauce.
Serve Cold with the noodle !

According to the japanese ppl at salon "Soba is genki desu " .

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Now : New hair style .. Very High fashion Jap-pop princess look . Thanks Sooji -San for gives me that new makeover.......upgrade my face niao... Thanks for telling me to upgrade a new boyfriend too ........coz I am upgraded !!!!!!!
He is very professional creative director and a master in hair dressing . Y? Local salon dresser dun give option... japanese hairstyler have their option and their way in doing things. After carefully analyse yr features and they will proceed to design yr hair. They are very generous as well as they dun gives sour face easily. They geninely want the best of our features and insist in not half pail of water work. I can see that. They are also hardworking; Eileen aka keli and leeping and me finish our hairdo at about 11pm but still full of energy even though they begin work at 10am ? ...He tailored made my hair that suit my face ... I love my hair ! They give me streaks of copper brown highlight and I am BACK TO DEMURE PRINCESS again !!!!!

Why everytime I look into the mirror , I see a beautiful lady standing in front ? (let out a girly laugh)

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Saturday, January 29, 2005

What i had learn the past months .......

What interview is all about ?

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So never give up

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Thursday, January 27, 2005

Guifeng had gave my usual ugly , permissimistic blog (nah , can't be bothered.. :p ) a makeover ! How nice is she ya !

Come COme Come to my blog ... Do you feel ...it's like ... Ahh...
Everything is so bright and happy in this sunshine + harmonical world ! !!!!!!
Everything is so prefect ... like... goes back to my nostagic childhood time... ( I missed my childhood pals .. ;) )

All flowers bloomed

Wind blows softly

The deep BlueSky is wide

Fragrance Flowers

The World is so beautiful

Music ..... bring me to a beautiful world.

Maybe I have been overshadowed by grey clouds ....
Now ....the shadow begin to move .... away .. uncovering the sun , the sunshine ..
The sunshine kissed my face , my body
The warm ... is so comfortable ...
I am full of life again !

BEWare ... cancer is still the 2nd biggest killer in Singapore
Put more UV block SPF 130 by Sunplay
Eat more Vit C and E.
Drink more green tea
Eat more greeny.
Less oil and salt
Dun overload yr carbohydrate.
ok...ok

The best days in our life , is nevertheless.... our childhood
The best thing that happened to us is nevertheless ...the music , the melody, music will nv leave u and nv failed to give u consoltation 24/7.

And .....

Foods!

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Later goin back to Kida Collage with LeePIng for hair coloring ...FOC !
last time , we wanted to go but in the end the master have not come back from new york hence, they wan to charge us half price ... But nw the master had come back ... it's free !
See those Japanese hairstylist again .. agrh ..
Kono kono kono ! KAwaii Neh yo ?

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Wednesday, January 26, 2005

kok leong , joyce , lynn and who else?

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Sunday, January 23, 2005

I can't help to blog again ....

Just finish watching Stephen chow's slapstick comedies in " A Chinese Odyssey Part 2: Cinderella" shown in ch 8, 8pm....

i felt that in this sega film, Stephen Chow is probably in his best performance ever , managing to be funny and affecting the audiences . The msg put across is clear ... plot reaches fruition and his slapstick funny performance yet his romance can takes on emotional resonance, which stephen chow lacked in his previous films .. I think the most impressive about this film is in their words ......
Direct and touching ! It phases just "Pia!" at you and u will goes like "ohh... pls..pls say u love her " HAhahaa .....While overall , the film , in the beginning , got a bit repetative and confusing ...but after finished the part 2 and repeat watching (well, mediacorp always broadcast repeated film for god- knows- how- many- times)

The most perfect lies that a guy can tell a gal and the gal SURE -WILL melts....and also how to save your life....

Guy , under the sword of the lady : 當時那把劍離我的喉嚨只有0.01公分，但是四分之一炷香之後，那把劍的女主人將會徹底地愛上我，因為我決定說一個謊話。雖然本人生平說過無數的謊話，但是這一個我認為是最完美的……

The Gal : 你再往前半步我就把你給殺了！

Guy: 你應該這麼做，我也應該死。曾經有一份真誠的愛情放在我面前，我沒有珍惜，等我失去的時候我才後悔莫及，人世間最痛苦的事莫過于此。你的劍在我的咽喉上割下去吧！不用再猶豫了！如果上天能夠給我一個再來一次的機會，我會對那個女孩子說三個字：我愛你。如果非要在這份愛上加上一個期限，我希望是……一萬年！
（"嗆啷"一聲寶劍落地，gal 感動得淚流滿面。） ;) ;) ;)

The "must say" before u ash ...

"沒關係了，生亦何哀，死亦何苦……"

The most unforgettable phases :

以前我看事物是用肉眼去看。
但是在我死去的那一剎那，
我開始用心眼去看這個世界，
所有的事物真的可以看得前所未有的那麼清楚……
原來那個女孩子在我的心裡面流下了一滴眼淚，
我完全可以感受到當時他是多麼地傷心……

GOSh ! wat the .... ;)

AND ...... HERE COmes THE most unforgettable Phases (before .. Sure will become the guy's fashionable phases and Sure will melt your heart...

曾經有一份真誠的愛情擺在我的面前，
但是我沒有珍惜，
等到了失去的時候才後悔莫及，
塵世間最痛苦的事莫過於此。

如果上天可以給我一個機會再來一次的話，
我會跟那個女孩子說"我愛她"。
如果非要把這份愛加上一個期限，我希望是一萬年！

精典! 精典! 精典! GOOD!

ENcore !

Encore !

EncORE!

ENCOre!

Encore !

eh ....Huh, another nice phases to cheat xiao mei mei .... (got it from somewhere)
如果愛上你是一種錯, 我深信這是我一生中最美的錯,
我寧願這樣錯一輩字,
你看得見我打在屏幕上的字嗎?
却看不見我掉在鍵盤上的眼淚,
或許愛情不一定完美,我寧願選擇無悔,不管來生多麼美好,
我都無法忘記今生對你的回憶,
希望我在死後能做一個天使,
永遠守護着你!

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Friday, January 21, 2005

Tok to my friends in msn and the topic goes to abt finding a partner...

I felt Aunt Sue now .. i should blog something abt finding a partner..
I read an article from Michelle McKinney Hammond and i feel that it is very very true !

let me summarise the article ....

If men were like buses, how do you catch one?
A more important question is - how do you catch the RIGHT one?

Simple: You take only the bus that's headed the RIGHT direction.
Be truly conscious when we do the picking.
And second, the decision for a mate must be made on a spiritual and intellectual basis before its made on an emotional one.

What about love?you ask.
I'll tell you why.
The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure.
Who can understand it?
The heart is willful and is driven by its own agenda. It does not consider things rationally and intelligently - it just loves to love!
Therefore you have to point it in the right directions.

Whenever you meet a man, get a clearance, check his attributes, and then allow your heart to engage.
Dating exists for collecting data.
A better design would be friendship, courtship and then marriage.
Friendship is two people walking together in agreement and accountability, learning and growing together.

Courtship is a mutual agreement to commit to one another exclusively - it is the decisive turning toward the agreed-upon goal of the marriage altar. But dating? Well, if you do date, use the time wisely to gather facts.

10 most basic in consideration , i am not picky !

1. Check out the fabric.
2 must have common interest and values and agree on the essentials ofliving day to day. You have a similar spiritual walk. You eat the same diet.You enjoy a lot of similar things. You have like interests, like goals in life, like opinions on basic life issues.

2. Does this man want you? Is he pursuing you?
The man who is right for you will pursue you. No guessing, no fleeces, no dead ends.
At the RIGHT TIME, you will be brought forth that man on the scene and he will find you. You do not need to strategically place yourself anywhere. You don't have to help a guy out because he's shy. Men will do whatever they have to do to get what they truly want.
The man in your life should recognise you as the pearl of great price in his life and be willing to do whatever he must in order to gain your hand. If he is passive about gaining your affections, take it as a sign that he is not interested. You don't need a bunch of men in your life to make you feel all right about yourself. You need only one man-your man, the right one, to select you. So relax, sit pretty and allow yourself to be found.

3. The man in your life should not desire to move into your house, only into your heart.

A man who prepares for your future has made his intentions clear.

4. Check out his buddies.
Everyone knows birds of the same feather flock together.
They reveal things about the guy's character that might be hidden when he is on good behaviour. Everyone knows how to put his best foot forward.
Don't stay focused on the foot,check out the rest of the body!

5. Check out his relationship with his mother.
How does he treat her? This is your preview of how he will treat you. There are lots of men who, because of a negative relationship with their mothers,really don't like women, yet say they do. Unresolved issues between mother and son continue between husband and wife.

6. Remember that a man's family reveals the cloth from which he's cut.
Check out his present his present family situation

7. Check out the patterns of his life.
Do you see repeated cycles of drama in his personal kingdom? Broken relationships? Problems in making commitments?Mood swings? Is a problem always someone else's fault? Does he embrace responsibility or shirk it? Does he keep his promises? Is he a man of good reputation?Remember all garments look wonderful hanging in the store, but with wear,some begin to unravel. Give yourself time and space to check out the man in your life. Time will always reveal whether or not he is made of the right stuff.

8. Does this man have a vision for his life?
Is your guy guided by a sense of destiny and purpose, or does he just allow life to happen around him?
A man who is not certain of his mission can be a most miserable person - and you'll be miserable too if you know where YOU want to go in life.A man who has vision is not intimidated by a woman whose mission statement is clear. He will be your best ally, cheerleader and assistant because he wants you both to make it! A man who cannot be supportive of your achievements because he is floundering in a sea of uncertainty over his own life is not a healthy partner to have and to hold forever. Creating dependencies or feelings of obligation is not the way to get the best out of your man. Somewhere along the way, he will resent you and flee from thes mothering burden of obligation he associates you with.

9 ) Complementary
Do your talents and gifts complement his? Do his gifts complement yours? What about your temperaments? Do you see the two of you as an effective team? Do your futures mesh?

If the man you meet makes you feel that you need to completely reinvent yourself, something is wrong. This is where I ask you to consider the relationship in terms of cost. Is this relationship expensive spiritually,emotionally or physically?

Does your longing for a mate make you willing to forfeit who you are in the process? Or does he see you as the gift that you are? see the cost? Any relationship that causes you to feel unworthy, unlovely, unacceptable, undesirable or that you have to work for love, is too expensive!
The man should cover, protect and provide not only materially fora woman, but emotionally and spiritually as well. You should be richer in mind, body and spirit for your union with the man of your dreams. The man inyour life should make rich deposits into your heart and spirit, not withdrawals.

10. Does he have a healthy love & acceptance of himself?
Make sure the man in your life has taken time to heal from past relationships and has made peace with himself. How he cares for himself is how he will care for you. This is not something that you can impart. You cannot be his saviour or teacher. That is out of spiritual order.So you decide. How much is your life worth? How much is your love worth?You will be able to accept only what you believe you deserve.

If think you deserved to be loved, should you expect anything less from a man?
If a man truly loves you, he should be willing to pay the cost for the hand that they desired. The truth of the matter is, everyone knows that anything worth having, costs. And no one gets a ride in this life for free.

From time to time, your desire for love might have caused you to leave your heart in the wrong hands.

So , Never settle for less than what you think you are worth.

bleaH ~ LONG SIA ..

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Wednesday, January 19, 2005

just early in the morning , somebody msg me this (my blissful slp just got disturbed arose lousy and my evil twin get better of me and blog evil blog ...this is life)

"Very immature of you to leave a work place in less than a month. If you don't want your should not have sign the agreement . Money is not everything. "

Ok ...immature (very that kind), indecisive, irresponsibility , money- minded.

Ahhh .....this is what happen to people. Human tend to see the thing at their point of view and simply can't be bothered not hear the another side of the story of the accuser and hence, they will pass comments that in unfair and judgemental.This Human's weakness happens to adult sadly ..... even to people who had eaten till very old......haha.

That is why I am procrastinating to work in service line;when u are angry and confused, wat the heck how to be fit ourselves in other people's shoes and be compassionate?

IF being very immature justify the thing I had done, jolly well I am happy to be immature as one of my prilivages attribute. In the work place, is it necessary to work at least one month to leave? I guess somebody there will rather leave soon if i am going to leave later as I am contributing the air pollution. I will be doing a great dis-service if I choose to leave later, can't you all see? Anyway , I hope to stay for one month at least to get my paycheck in full if they allow but there is no point. BTW , i had not sign the agreement till the day I left. The efficient HR department have not even assign employee no. and did i told you that they put "temp admin assistant in the agreement ? I can't believe the mistake too. If i have time travel to know what in stored for me in the future, god gracious, I 'm rich and will be enjoying now. Why people like to assume that other's have time machine? Helloe! still living in your fantasy dream?
Flexibility and laterally thinking...isn't MOE is encouraging that? We shouldn't be stiff and in the end compromised the future.

Changing one place to the other, I just seen enough of corporate world, you will replaced immediately the next moment when u say "quit". How quickly you are replaced.The work goes on as normal sooner or later. U say "no " to your arise opportunity , this will not be replaced and regret is surely forever.
Who will give you promises that in this survival of the fittest? Compromise the thing that u want to do and u get laid off sooner or later by the company... let's see how's being "mature" and "responsible " can get u far. I mean , be smarter, stop been caring to a company who can happily survive without u..... u think for yourselves in some way that ... can u survive? I went to so many corporate, small , middle , big ....all work out the same.
yes, money is not everything (cliche cliche cliche! can say something more intelligent) but dreams is . If the agreement comes in a form of financial penalty , i will be most willing to pay for it. I pay it for my dreams. Of coz la, sitting comfortablely at 4th level
and juz simply read out from the slide words by words and get god-know- how many thousand of dollars every month and this rich brat easy say easy do (gimme $$ la) .....need to spank!

oh ya, even a person look calm and smiley on outside, their inner could be overturning waves of destruction , busy plotting sweet revenges that is so eagerly to strike behind your back.
People do get nasty and feeling bitter by bad news anyway but it depends on how they handle it, especially to the green-eyed monster to others who can get more money, better prospect, interesting life, status and opportunities ( ah yes, ya rite , u think la.. grass is always greener on other side mah).

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Chat wif sunita real late yesterday... coolz, she composed music and sing. Wat's more , she composed poems too. She's so talented!

Listen to the demo she sent to me ...BRAVO!
At lst, there is the guitar strumming (by her bro) and later she sung with it... the song goes well with the guitar ... I loved the guitar melodic!
The voice is clear , backup up by guitar strumming.
Not everybody can really sing with guitar strumming only.

I AM HER FAN----CEE!!!!!!
I loved her poems and her lyrics... all backup with strong meaning !
Something that I had always wan to look for .......

This is few of her lines from her poem "Confused Child"....and i should end my today's blog ...wif 2 zero roti prata that my mom had bought for me early in the morning ! Thanks mom !

DArkness engulf the clear blue sky
Comforted by stars and moon light
Silently amused by dancing shadow
Little knows the innocent heart
Of circumstance around her
Unaware

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I am listening to the song " yong qi " by Fish Leong, but the song lyric is not related to my situation now. But I like the name " Yong Qi " .

All the steps we take in life need courage
You need courage to leave a job to go for further progression and risk for self improvement and realising your dreams.
You need courage to step out of a relationship which will lead you to nowhere.
You need courage to leave your friends and colleagues somehow you had grown attached to them.
You need courage to know and accept new people that keep coming in your life.
You need courage to try to forget the person who had really hurt your heart badly and forgives them.
You need courage to face the failures in your life and learn from them.
You need courage to face your biggest enemy, yourself.
You need courage every morning the moment when u wake up to go for work.
You need courage to accept that your loved ones will leave you one day, maybe is today.
You need courage to accept that yesterday you had gone , left only the present you to fought for the 2moro.
You need courage to face that pim pim on your face! (anyway, that is the biggest courage for me)
You need courage to play nice with the jerks and emotional fuckwittages that come into your life to entertain you .
You need courage to face the disappointment of the people that you respect and you desperately want them to be proud of you.
And the courage to take easy of the unexpectancy in your life, the changes and the new kind of feelings each evolved.

Professor Koah trust and "LOOK hiGH UP" on me that she entrust the whole new research project for me to handle. I mean ....I know I will do well and I will not disappoint her.. I am willing to take up the challenges.

I had read up the research papers that had been published ... I really like the research that they handed to me.. it about a genetic research studies about individual's drug metabolism with their gene CYP2C19, we had oredi begin on it with those blood samples coming in .

toking about the blood samples... I felt utterly disgusting !
DNA extraction is full of blood splash ...tiny blood dots can be seen on the pipette holder and the bottles. Because when we open the tube of blood, there can be aerosol !

I agree with guifeng too that the lst few weeks are all about reading up .. ... kau , boring boring boring! When we actually know what are we going to do, we will be darm busy! I WANT TO DO LAB! i can actually see that the people there is not workaholic ...it is because they are too busy too tok! wah ......

If it meant not fated to .... it not been fated to .

Rarely, I can stay up late at the hour...............................................................................

My resolution to become a more feminine species

My male colleagues thor and others from PSB called me up this morning and chio me wanna have lurch with the group of big boys ... kau ... I tell them next time la ...
A sudden call from them jolted me in a surprise mode while i am so engaged in my scientific reports
now resolute wan to be feminine niao cano join....Now must cultivate inner and outer poise ( Kau ! Puke la!)

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Tuesday, January 18, 2005

In the process of job dilemma again !

Opp! I did it again........................

must...keep...busy...
i'm definitely more hormonal than usual..Am having a really big pim pim on my face and now had dried up. .*bleaaacch* I just can't face the world with a pim pim, I will hate the mirror and develop an anti-social behavior with myself and self -wallow...I can't even eat wif pim pim. I will think about my pim pim the whole day and I will whin to others till others feel bad about themselves! Well, I am a vain gal .

so pardon my ramblings about my never-ending search for a way to earn a living. i just need to keep hands and mind busy, so as thoughts will not stray. and what i say one day does not necessarily mean my views remain the same another day. psycho? yes....aren't we all?

Should I leave my position as medical tech or research assistant A.K.A walking Zombie in NUH ?

Should I take the risk of been jobless zombie after the end of the March ?

DO I LIKE BORING WORK?
DNA XTRACTION then PCR then RUN AGAROSE GEL then DIGEST then RUN GEL???? TILL research fund run gong gong???

DO I LIKE WORK THAT REQUIRE ME TO STAND LONG HOURS FROM VERY EARLY IN THE MORNING TO 5pm? AND paid miserably ? SOME MORE TRAVEL A LONG DISTANCE to work?but have 30 days leave on top of MC leaves and with free meals and health benefits as you are a PErmenant Staff (At Last ;D )? Am i going to do sales? Am I going to face unreasonable people that will slap u on your face and u got to pretending nothing happen like a fool? Do I really like people?

Last of all, ...........I MISSed HSA !!!!!! I am thinking about my colleagues in HSA, on how they had impacted my life although it is 2 and the half months. They had let me discover that .... how i loved people, human is the more tedious things to learnt , as deep as a bottomless pit, as borderless as an universe. Handling people realtionship is like a double edged sword , u work well with them , it will be a infinate gain. If u can't handle well, ....then u are in deep shit, they can ruin u too. I realised that how generous people can bring to me ....although I can't help much to them . I am so ashamed sometimes. I remembered Miss Norita ( my final year in sec school form teacher) ; she said once " If u have a thing that people like it and that you can give that particular thing to people, give it . They will remember u forever. "

Back to topic.....Am I going to waste my youth in an enclosed environment, shut out of the world, doing the thing that is simply required me to be dull and control my freedom of expression? Am i comfortable with 9 to 5 work that do the same thing and more reading AND MORE READING and by just doing this , waiting for paycheck ? AM I satisfied with this safe (not really) and slow paced life?

I believe i may be one of "permanent freelancers or temps". after i learn something, i'm hungry for other things to learn. I know that some may feel this shouldn't be the way, with bad track records in your CV, but perhaps i haven't found something that i want to really own. I would stay longer, but it feels ethically wrong to stay in a company where
1) the boss insults you and possess no leadership qualities AND is determined to hold you back; and
2) lack of sleep due to the dullness of the job ...it's strangest way and the most effective way to make u feel drowy although u had slp from 8pm to 6.30am in the morning.(the rest of the staff in company is now officially zombie-looking)I just don't know anymore. all i can imagine is the world is a blob, and its eating me up, slowly..painfully..pride gets in my way of asking for help, as i never want to burden others, probably thats why i'm so down...hmmm..what's a girl to do? at least i had my blog to drown my sorrows...

What I Want to get in my life?
I wan a happening life......a job by the end of the day , learnt something about life, something that can touches me , learnt something about me, learnt something about people, breathe the air of the wonderful world outside and goes on dealing with shitty people with such a shitty atitudes so that I can laugh secretly on how they make a fool of themselves..... I like to have a life.....of excitement. The pay? Is essential but not the foremost important........(ya la , the more the better)

Pardon my ramblings about my never-ending search for a way to earn a living. i just need to keep hands and mind busy, so as thoughts will not stray. and what i say one day does not necessarily mean my views remain the same another day. psycho? yes....aren't we all?
SIANz...
Work is all in my mind now..... ( but it is better than been a lovelorn sickening freak)

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Friday, January 14, 2005

i got this fortune telling of Pig's 2005 from an friend's email .
IS it really? I shall see .
For the Pig,

Overall
Problems will occur this year and you will need to handle them with a calm
mind. There will also be chances for you to change into a new job. Whatever
the outcome, always be strong and show your determination, do your very
best. Build better relationships with people. Do be more alert as you may get
hurt easily this year and avoid water sports.

Wealth

You will need to work hard in order to earn more money. Your wealth luck will
depend on your hard work. Be more alert when investing.

Career

There will be many changes that you will need to adapt to this year. Be
more alert when investing. When handling documents, always do thorough checks
before signing. You may have a chance of going overseas to work or
travelling for a holiday.

Health

Avoid climbing and doing dangerous stunts. When going outdoors, do not go
alone. Do be more alert of your own safety. Take note of the food that you
eat to avoid food poisoning.

love
Youngsters should avoid falling in love at such a tender age. They should put
their studies first. There will be many conflicts in the relationship of married couples and they will need to be settled, quickly.

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I am like freezing in lab and I had not be able to touch on any experiment yet. They promise me that they are going to put me into my feet all the time next week? ( omg) As my research will start next week.

I felt a surge of insecurity . My research is funded under research grant. If the grant is depleting ... so I will be out of job. In other words, it depend on how I perform.
Well , I will be dealing with Human blood where I got to carry out DNA extraction and real time PCR . I heard that my project is related to a clinical trial in progress.

Sounds great but actually when u get into the mud , it is boring and just routine.
When I look into the people working in a research labs, i saw a great passion that is burning in them. Although everything about them is cold, quiet and serious but I saw fires and yielding in their eyes, sort of wanting to contribute to save the mankind. They are there because they have the passion in the greatness of Sciences. How they want to make use of the high technology of scientific research to turn the doom of diseases- inflicting nation into healthy being.

Our lab conduct more than 40 different tests of different kind of diseases. And the samples just keep coming in , teamwork, communication and able to meet the tightly planned schedules is very difficult. They have no time to bitch ....like me and all samples have deadline, mostly within 10 days. We dun have the luck to do 1 test. We are juggling with 10 over tests each time. Hence, organising and careful planning beforehand is very important. Wooh ... multitaskercity!

Actually I hardly get to real tok to the people there. While taking their lunch, they can even tok about work. For a newbie like me , lunch means 1 hr, precisely. For them, lurch means finished eating for 5 mins to 10 mins and straight away cheong LAB work !

This is wat i can feel, in their mind, is all about the planning the tests(whether can finish this , finish that by that time) and how to go about optimizing their research... because they are so passion, focus and their pride on their work. The work is like life to them.. maybe I should not call it work...A HOBBIES.....no , is it LOVE . Love is a powerful cliche... but still works anyway. Without love , u may lost hope in life.

U tik OT means extra $$$, there FOC OT man ! Cano finish lab must stay back till long long . Early come, back late. Coz they are fully packed ! Alt sat must come back also .

For me, I am still adapting to their environment which i felt it hard to digest. Just 3 days i am there, I felt .....breathless. i am still thinking about having one cup of yogurt in one hand and other hand an apple with earpieces stuck in my ear.. blissfully blasting with " Sixpence none the richer " songs. While doing that , I can still check my yahoo account after i finished checking the drug . Sometimes when a call comes , i took out one earpiece and start chatting away , while doing that, I take a potatoe chip from my colleague , lynn and say tank u and starting chatting away. After that, i turned back and tok to Ms pang about her latest vacation trip to Korea, she bought me a hp hanger , a cute korea doll from korea. BTW, i had finished the coco that they gave to me ..

back to my sit , I pull out my lst drawer, WAaaaaaa.... FULL OF SNACK like cereal , teabags , biscuits, fruits , coco, blah blah blah. JUNK foods!

I am shamelessly confessing my sinful lifestyles in my previous job. A.... vacation .

Now I had replaced them with piles of books for me to digest
" Practical Approach in method of testing Infectious agents. "
" A practical approach to PCR"
" A to Z DNA"
"Protocol in mutation analysis"
forgotten...........la

no music, no msn , no foods, no toking, no surfing, no comfortable sit, no db screen backup by powerful pc system, no porn ( yeah u believe) , no peeping at cute joyce, no toking to mr nice KL, no toking to chattty ms pang and lamey koh.
Wat about few of those young gals ....the evalutors? ! I can't believe they are the evalutors as they simply tok about my love life *(yes they ask abt my bfs ... no la no la ...I bisexual 1 la!) ... u know wat the normal youngsters in their 21s are toking.. no education level gaps while they can be as professsional in their working as they want. wat abt RAima?She gaves me those shoes ! Hoe nice! Catherine ? She gaves me a ginger bread man in christmas! Ms pang? She gives me tig tig air tight food container in christmas! Breaktimes? yes.....own self service.

how can i fit to tok abt been in research while my mind is abt enjoying? Where is my original dreams , have they been washed away by the tempting of desires in life?

I guess I need more time for adaptation

Anonymous scribbled this at 6:13 AM...

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

I just cannot fill in all my happiness in one time now ! Happiness is so simple , one small thing can just simply make me smile since yesterday till now. I am just so easy to be happy.

Now I am eating cheesecake while I am blogging. It is the cheesest new yoke cheese cake that i had ever eaten . I got to eat one whole cheese cake which was bought by my colleagues Kok leong and joyce yesterday. The box of cheesecake just "boop!" on my desk and I was caught by Surprised! I ....... am out of breathe !

"This is bought for you only, u better eat them all...u say u like cheesecake hor !" They know I like cheesecake and a piece of cheesecake just dun satisfy me! ONE WHOLE CHEESE CAKE U KNOW .It is written in the box: DON , Your personal pie club at 20 cross st #01-34 china square central.http://donpieclub.com.sg/ be consume by 7 days.

the cheesecake is so nice !in it's purest cheese

look at their cheesy face ..

Just when I thought that only my loyal lurch and home kakis celebrate my leaving with MY FAV FAV FAV YUMMY GOD DARM EARTH SHOCKINGcheesecake........

My drug evalutor cum scientist gathered around me , they are sinyun , lee yun , Deputy head :Wong KC, Ee shan , melanie , RTOs and etc and present me some gifts. The gifts are OP bag and U2000 greyish green jacket. cool ! I almost cried!

All of them wishes me best of luck in my voyage of discovery and bid farewell.....

Hope that I had contribute something in the company ...
I am so glad when they say that ..
As for melanie, she mentioned i am one of the best in screening other than ericia! All the evaluator agreed that...(" v " ) Thanks ~Blush~ !
As for lee lyn , she mentioned that I picked up fast although is is only 2 months and the half! And she is pleased with it . ( Thanks ..)
Toking about 2 1/2 months... I felt is it a long time since I joined . But contridicting ... I felt it have been a short while.
I hope that the new gal whom I had taught for 2 days can performance better than me !

I got so much to blog and I just have no time , hence just brief though..

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Haiz , in the lab... hik hik .. i just so regret that i quit my comfortable job at HSA and make way to makeshift desk , no computers(got la, shared 1, i am so down of luck ) , no msn , no music, no eating .. the ppl there like bao zheng like that , so dien mian wu shi , although they are mostly young gals like in my age. I can't believe my eyes that my nightmare all come true ! Somemore their toilet is graded ***. all are at their feet doing their own business (i felt , so boring .. but i hope for the better .. i hope ...

Wat can be more torturing than asking me to sit the whole day looking at the safety manual. i fall asleep a few times but awaken my the stop clock .The end of the day , Prof Koah, as usually on her cheery smile, patted on my back of my shoulder several times, heavily (the gesture like , "giant, u gutsy gal, I pin on u to do this pit of shit messy research (which I nv wan to do) on u and u will be very very very stressed and i hope on u )

" Siew HUi, we had decided to put u into research instead of service .. on genotype,,, u will be doing DNA extraction ... PCR .. ......................................................................
.......................................................................
....................................................................... (pls fill in this yourselves so that I can take a nap)

Suddenly I woken up ..

" U like this , is it ok for u ?"
" yeah .. okay .. " .. taste not bad , but DON pie shop at cross road tasted more cheesy ....
huh ? she sounds like a flight stewardess who had just offered me a piece of cheesecake.

HUh ? Finished? (quick, blot dry yr droopling!)

I tried to slap my face , and pray hard enough ... " pls pls wake mi up , this is not nightmare , pls slap me back to HSA...)

Still in that monotonous lab... the pointless confusing routine , the washing machine , the biohazard sign.... no life....

Finally , i am stucked, I am stucked . Condemed in here forever........

no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life

no no no no no no no nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!
My life just got stuck into the ineviable darkness forever.

Anonymous scribbled this at 5:43 AM...

I just cannot fill in all my happiness in one time now ! Happiness is so simple , one small thing can just simply make me smile since yesterday till now. I am just so easy to be happy.

Now I am eating cheesecake while I am blogging. It is the cheesest new yoke cheese cake that i had ever eaten . I got to eat one whole cheese cake which was bought by my colleagues Kok leong and joyce yesterday. The box of cheesecake just "boop!" on my desk and I was caught by Surprised! I ....... am out of breathe !

"This is bought for you only, u better eat them all...u say u like cheesecake hor !" They know I like cheesecake and a piece of cheesecake just dun satisfy me! ONE WHOLE CHEESE CAKE U KNOW .It is written in the box: DON , Your personal pie club at 20 cross st #01-34 china square central.http://donpieclub.com.sg/ be consume by 7 days.

the cheesecake is so nice !in it's purest cheese

look at their cheesy face ..

Just when I thought that only my loyal lurch and home kakis celebrate my leaving with MY FAV FAV FAV YUMMY GOD DARM EARTH SHOCKINGcheesecake........

My drug evalutor cum scientist gathered around me , they are sinyun , lee yun , Deputy head :Wong KC, Ee shan , melanie , RTOs and etc and present me some gifts. The gifts are OP bag and U2000 greyish green jacket. cool ! I almost cried!

All of them wishes me best of luck and farewell.....

Hope that I had contribute something in the company ...
I am so glad when they say that ..
As for melanie, she mentioned i am one of the best in screening other than ericia! All the evaluator agreed that...(chruckled)
As for lee lyn , she mentioned that I picked up fast although is is only 2 months and the half! And she is pleased with it .
Toking about 2 1/2 months... I felt is it a long time since I joined . But contridicting ... I felt it have been a short while.
I hope that the new gal whom I had taught for 2 days can performance better than me !

I got so much to blog and I just have no time , hence just brief though..

-------------------------------------------------------------------------
Haiz , in the lab... hik hik .. i just so regret that i quit my comfortable job at HSA and make way to makeshift desk , no computers(got la, shared 1, i am so down of luck ) , no msn , no music, no eating .. the ppl there like bao zheng like that , so dien mian wu shi , although they are mostly young gals like in my age. I can't believe my eyes that my nightmare all come true ! Somemore their toilet is graded ***. all are at their feet doing their own business (i felt , so boring .. but i hope for the better .. i hope ...

Wat can be more torturing than asking me to sit the whole day looking at the safety manual. i fall asleep a few times but awaken my the stop clock .The end of the day , Prof Koah, as usually on her cheery smile, patted on my back of my shoulder several times, heavily (the gesture like , "giant, u gutsy gal, I pin on u to do this pit of shit messy research (which I nv wan to do) on u and u will be very very very stressed and i hope on u )

" Siew HUi, we had decided to put u into research instead of service .. on genotype,,, u will be doing DNA extraction ... PCR .. ......................................................................
.......................................................................
....................................................................... (pls fill in this yourselves so that I can take a nap)

Suddenly I woken up ..

" U like this , is it ok for u ?"
" yeah .. okay .. " .. taste not bad , but DON pie shop at cross road tasted more cheesy ....
huh ? she sounds like a flight stewardess who had just offered me a piece of cheesecake.

HUh ? Finished? (quick, blot dry yr droopling!)

I tried to slap my face , and pray hard enough ... " pls pls wake mi up , this is not nightmare , pls slap me back to HSA...)

Still in that monotonous lab... the pointless confusing routine , the washing machine , the biohazard sign.... no life....

Finally , i am stucked, I am stucked . Condemed in here forever........

no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life

no no no no no no no nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!
My life just got stuck into the ineviable darkness forever.

Anonymous scribbled this at 5:43 AM...

Saturday, January 08, 2005

Don't crap with me !

Sunita msm me a msg

"Hw new year? Any program? I hv free tickets to sri lanka, Phuket n Chennai. Interested? Don' t worry , my Japanese friend , Mr Tsunamis will take care of u ."

I reply " where u get this free trip , lobang .."

i reply " It must be kinda of fun trip ! Exquisite once in a lifetime free surfing of wakeboarding that is up to 3 storey high! Coolz! remember to bring your bikini and ask Mr Tsunamis to bring his Billabong shorts too!

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:38 PM...

Beside me is DW

Anonymous scribbled this at 9:46 AM...

Wo men shi ....

Anonymous scribbled this at 9:43 AM...

they are holding a kind of mini bubble form party

Anonymous scribbled this at 9:37 AM...

3 sweeties from TCS ch 8 . They are Ou she, fiona xie and shi mei

Anonymous scribbled this at 9:14 AM...

hunks

Anonymous scribbled this at 7:57 AM...

This is boon lay , our dearest neighbourhood but it look like a mini orchard. Good find! There to attend new year @boon lay

Anonymous scribbled this at 7:09 AM...

The lst day of the new year got some free entertainment from Alvin and henry my dear old colleague cum joker buddies Home directly and back home .

As a regular to Kbox and partyworld like them , how can they dun take a chio bu like me to Kbox and show off their glory piece? A... I mean to show off how beautiful is their voice box .... their fav piece is used to be my primary school hum hum piece lei. Thinking back like quite retro and nostagic . LOok back like the people over those days like to sing like Emotional Fuckwittage.
Of coz , they must sing like emotional fuckwits in order bring out the feeling of the song , and a Emotional Fuckwittage like me will well touched by their fruitless effort. An Emotional Fuckwittage like me of coz repay their kindness by singing those cute cute songs from S.H.E and blah blah . In the end , Emotional Fuckwittage like me can't resist to become Queen of KTv and felt hard to resist the temptation to conquer the remote control , snatch their microphone and select my fav songs to sing.

Sometimes I find hard to understand mars, they can hard to initial to sing the songs and I got to open my golden voice lst. And its that men can't say their feelings or talk about them without seeming like poufs but they can sing like all their feeling out in the songs like emotional fuckwits. But they find it easy to end the KTV selection by selecting hard rock song as their last song. .. then sing like hell break loose .. they can choose to select songs like they can sing like Diva Plavalaguna (actually sing by Inva Mulla Tchako) in the "Diva Dance" from the Fifth Element and in the end ask each other with their turned blue face " henry/alvin , bor hell la, backup backup, backup bor ? backup la .. ~shoving the microphone on to him~) Somemore wan to v.s me ,the queen of Ktv, u wan to v.s me also 2 guys... against me got guts come la, dun see see me in office like a tiny wimp gentle gentle giga giga will only listen and say " hao pang hao pang!" , i only whip the rope and hiss like snake in the Kbox!

Those guys can sing reAlly pro... their Gong Fu Wa cantonese opera also diao 1, some of the songs I just thought that it is sing by the singers themselves. really pro ! My brother is a cantonese pro himself , sure hit with them .....

An old song from the 80s .Called" Waiting for u wait till my heart pain" This is wat happen in Kbox with guys who are born on the midst to end of 70s. Indeed an traditional emotion love song coz the song is so yaya and Boo woo woo...mushy mushy. Wat did I sing ? S.H.E 's songs alamak! Those like hip hip type with those " I dun care atitiude" rap rap rap ..
When emotional fuckwitts meet new age sweet cutey pie .. muah hahaha ..

die la... till now I had not heard from them liao ... bu hui shi " Kan bai xia fong" niao?

Thinking back, this song below I used to sing when I am at primary

Life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone
I hear you call my name
And it feels like home
When you call my name it's like a little prayer
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there
I hear your voice, it's like an angel sighing
have no choice, I hear your voice
Feels like flying
I close my eyes, Oh God I think I'm falling
Out of the sky, I close my eyes
Heaven help me
When you call my name it's like a little prayer
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there
Like a child you whisper softly to me
You're in control just like a child
Now I'm dancingIt's like a dream, no end and no beginning
You're here with me, it's like a dream
Let the choir sing
When you call my name it's like a little prayer
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there
Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there
Just like a muse to me, you are a mystery
Just like a dream, you are not what you seem
Just like a prayer, no choice your voice can take me there
Just like a prayer, I'll take you there
It's like a dream to me

Anonymous scribbled this at 7:01 AM...

Create this to humor purpose , actually to protect the their identities in case u might wan to hit them wif parang

kbox kakis alvin n' henry

Anonymous scribbled this at 6:53 AM...

Friday, January 07, 2005

Thursday: Yummy ..

yesterday ..hohoh .. Always got treat.

Went to Cosi coffee at the orchard and sip in some nice Ice blend cafe mocha with venilla . 3 of 38 like us 383838 on the interview thing and do some voice box n mouth exercise n pic taking with DW newest panasonic pic.
Go to Nooch . The noodle bar and eat a very sinful thing : Hershey coco with whipped cream topping on .. something like that ..Treated by Diana Woon's friend, Anna's Peter. In order not to bomb their pocket shell, I decided not to eat noodle.

DW's friend came , Julie. HE is julie .... I am kind of hit with him as that chap is a bubbly and confident guy...we go on and on bub bub all the way to coffee bean. I got quite lot of interview techni from him. Dun know y ... I kind of hit with DW's friends. First with Anna then with Julie

Diana Woon , dun say any more. Never a min we stopped talking as she's an aries and I am a aries and when both aries hit up a common topic... shit...

At 9.30pm, we moved to coffee bean and met Erica Lee . Erica Lee is a sex goddess. Imagine the xiao long nui of the comic version of Condor heroes. She look like her almost. Big pair of eyes with prefect eyelashes comes with a long sharp nose and a small cherry lip. All compatible to her oval shaped-face. Wat's more, she got a great asset to boost. She look like maniquin. Sometimes later came popped out a man, I almost say ... yr uncle ..or your colleague... No ...Her boyfriend. Big CEO or Manager in his early 40s- look -alike and drive a sport car.

friday:HSA is having a new year party ...mexico buffet and there are people performing classical stum and sing..o my god .. the good view from Biopolis Helio below. The water fall from the building ...gosh ... gosh .. I hope that Joyce can tell u how we wish our bf is here ( but nope , we dun even have bf b4 ....but we discuss about the tons of admirers we have) And kok leong join us later ( KL is Joyce's rumour chaser , well, hehe ...I have fun time tense them!)

Up there in the building , i felt so fantastic and 3 of us tok like freedom as we want to , experience the essential of the youth! Not for those milipes .. (yuck!) we will stay as long as we want. That place is really a place for dating .. keke

Joyce...is a sagittarus. A fire sign + me: Aries , fire sign = oh my god!

That moment, i felt that I am like in vacation even working in HSA, even I got a lot of duties but there are still an allowances to relax. I'm still in vacation since poly.

This morning, my colleagues get to know my leaving and they are kind of like sad but also angry becoz I carry heavy responsible as I am in charge with a lot of things. I wonder how the RTOs is goin to survive . They are goin to survive....How ? I understand that and I felt cruel in just leave like that . How many times i told myself that I cannot rule with emotion ...esp in corporate world , sori joyce, i am really "kan qing yong shi". I try my best ... Joyce more worst , she dun even want to find jobs, i tik she's experience wat i had experienced and she's in a hopeless stage where she doesn't want to leave...AND JOLLY well me wasn't in the final stage of hopelessly fall in love wif the company and DUN wan to leave anymore... seriously ..addictive!

The RTOs cannot depends everything on me... although I hope I can do more but u know i got to leave one day. Thay carry heavy workload , so if I left the place, is there goin to be chaos ?
In the lst place , how can they depend on temps to do the works that is supposed to be done by the perm? And how can they allow me to do the work such as to participate in the duties of drug approval where I had no prior basic training and experience before? Ericia told me before she left the company: all the thing that drug reg evalutors and technical officer had dump the things for her to do , she had completely no ideas of wat to do, nobody teach her and RTOs is doin a bad job in picking up the mistakes. Then, She learnt all the things all by herself including doing the read up and sort of. Ericia is kind of expert in doing the picking of mistakes in the dossier and report to evalutors. Everyone in the DRB of coz dun wan her to leave as she's a capable worker. It's HSA losses in insisting not keeping a capable worker behind .. keke and me too..

I remember Ericia said in her last day to me " HOW can they let u in charge with these things? I am worried.."

" Zi shen Zi mia ba! "

+Who will screen the drugs in such a manner where careful care in taken?
Who is going to neg with the applicant ?
Who is goin to scold the applicant?
Who is goin to write the letters , reject letters.. keke
Who is goin to carry that heavy dossiers ?
Who is goin to crap?

Next week is my last week and suddenly I felt a sudden urge of regrets for leaving HSA. I got good colleagues and friends whose treat me warmly and HSa is really a good company .Which company where will give u Free fruits at the end of the month to support Healthy Eating day?And 2 hours off every thurs to support jogging activities ....? They have lot activities up hold and pull the bonds together like 1 big family.working dun feel like working , we will try to cover up mistakes our colleagues make sometimes...
Even i stay on and earn peanuts pay.. Dun u feel that true happiness worth more than anything else?

Even as a name of only a temp personnel.... make this vacation as long as i can... even it compromise my future. Becoz, u may not get this kind of life in future.

Took some pic and blog soon!

Anonymous scribbled this at 6:04 AM...

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

i have so been in the mood to write a really really .. er something rather blog. (hah, bad ass start there lahnna..). but yeah thats my goal today.

"kick ass. stay strong."

thats such a great quote. when you kick ass, keep going. be strong, you control your fate and you are as strong as you think you are.

A- kick- Ass- Off -the- my- Comfortable -chair-rolling -on-the-floor- with that conversation with Ericia that had quite impacted me last week.

"ok.. i quit"

:37:30 AM You said:yoz afternoon
7:37:44 AM You said:how's yr trip to india?
7:39:38 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:hi..
7:39:47 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:everything went well except food poisoning
8:35:43 AM You said:huh food poisioning , that bad...
8:38:40 AM You said:I am doing pretty welll in hsa and i dun wan to leave ..i got a job offer from nuh as medical tech ..how?
8:40:43 AM You said:i think i will be leaving HSA in 2 weeks time

8:49:23 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:i duno...
8:49:27 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:up to u.. which u prefer
8:49:31 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:ptime or full time

8:55:17 AM You said:both also can
8:55:26 AM You said:but i like the hsa environment...
8:56:06 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:thats ur future.. u have to make a decision

8:57:11 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:u cant ask ppl for opinion...
8:57:23 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:think of ur future..

9:13:45 AM You said:since u have worked in hsa abt 1 year, do u think is there any future or not?
9:14:15 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:no comments

9:14:20 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:it all depends on ur interest
9:14:46 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:if u prefer those sit around chit chat life then be it.. continue
9:14:57 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:if u wan challenging job .. u got to find it else where

9:15:04 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:all depends the nature of job u prefer
9:15:43 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:for my case i am one who dislike sitting by the desk and do reading.. that is why i left the job

9:15:46 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:so all depends on u..

10:25:42 AM You said:ask u a personal Q , have u ever procrastinated in leaving HSA , despite it's relax environment?
10:28:19 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:/???
10:28:25 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:i ask u back la..

10:28:37 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:did they ever mention to u that they wan to convert u to perm?
10:29:04 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:u wan to forever work as temp then i got no comments
10:29:21 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:u are still young.. u can afford to waste ur time.. ppl like me too old for such stuff lioa
10:29:36 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:career for me now is more impt than anything..
10:30:27 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:tell u the truth i believe chances of converting to perm will be very small.... so no point wasting ur time there
10:30:39 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:but if u enjoy such life and no worries over money etc then go ahead

10:32:23 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:i believe u already know what u want.. just that u dun wan to say out nia.. just want to follow what others say..

10:32:35 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:Just do watever u feel like it.. its ur life.. dont let others affect ur decision

10:35:33 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:no point asking around
10:35:44 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:stop wasting ur own time asking :D

10:36:59 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:i am a straight forward person :)

10:37:16 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:so dont waste ur time asking nor waste others time in answering

10:37:37 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:do wat u think is right for u.. dont let others decide for u.. Is ur lIfe!
10:37:43 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:hope u not offended

10:40:14 AM You said:no la...i am not offended ...i like ppl who gives honest advice coz ...

10:40:59 AM You said:coz....sometimes there are too much lies to maintain in a relationship

10:42:03 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:haiz.. then u stick to it then if u are insist of staying
10:42:08 AM zicia@hotmail.com says:work till u die there

*at this point of time , me :
-_-

Butt kicking sia. This is no kidding

Especially these:
Just do watever u feel like it.. its ur life.. dont let others affect ur decision

if u wan challenging job .. u got to find it else where

do wat u think is right for u.. dont let others decide for u.. Is ur lIfe!

work till u die there !

I think i can just fall in love with her

I know she's not lying and I believe that as a experienced person who had gone though this before ...she goes on to P & G as a Researcher (anyway, look like she's eng in P & G :^) , she gives a very honest advice.

Ericia , although saw her for only 2 days but she's kind of a very CooLZ n ...well sort of gutsy and "got character" person.
It's better than knowing a person who dun gives revolting , honest opinion ...leading to your pitfall.
Sometimes , it is essential to have such a mate to come into your life , gives u a good scolding , spank u , curse u , insult u, foul criticizing without any holdback of whether they will hurt u . without like a wimp as they mean gd.

COmE ON ! KICK ME on my BIG FAT Butt AND send Me FLYing ....LAying on the cold hard Floor ...Then Stampade ME AGAIN AnD AgaIn with your flying sauces Kicking leg, slap me on my face left right left right...fiNALLy POUr ME SOme BurRRINg COLD WATER On MY SLEEPPY FACE .. And I Goes

Fully awaken. "THANk u friend, wat am I doing here ...wat time is it?"

KEKE (exaggerated..)

They , maybe hidden behind an action of foulness, but at the end of the day, they could be the one emerged..... as your true benefactor.
But... also a lady who will let u go vomit blood lolx !

Toking about asking ppl around for advice and throw your own responsibilities on them ( and hopefully u can blame them if something goes wrong to make u feel better). Advices is helpful, but use wisely!

Anonymous scribbled this at 5:19 AM...